Dunno why,but i wants to spend more time with the cell now.I want to know the cell more and that hope the cell will be really a family.I don't mind doing things,planning outings for the cell even though I'm really busy.Feeling happy and enjoying myself also when they are enjoying.Maybe just realise that I have been spending too much time with my poly friends.Cause the people in the cell are my brothers and sisters in Christ and which should given more priority than my poly friends right?But truely, sometimes I have rather go with my poly friends than my cell,and is it wrong?I dunno and dun want to know.But I know that my cell will always be there for me no matter what.
AND I know that I love my cell-Gen1.3
Poly life issn't anyway helpful in my walk with God and only causes me to go after the things of the world,which I know I should not,BUT its hard to control myself and I just can't help it at times.
But I wan to go deeper with God,but dunno how.And it has been long since I have felt God's presence which sometimes makes me think and to wonder tht is God real?...I know tht God is real and have felt His presence before,but after so longggggggg and with all the world's thing coming into my mind which causes me to feel like......(dun feel like saying it out,but if u understand the situation,you will know what i wan to say).But Thank God there are people out there helping me and encouraging me:)
I wan to rise up I think I'm too comfortable at wher I am.BUT easy to say but hard to do.I really dunno how to rise up loh,I mean like i dun have the courage to step up and i dun really even dare to pray in front of ppl loh and more over to preach the gospel to ppl.But deep inside my heart i really wan to rise up.
Sheep?Ppl been asking me whether a wan to be shephard?But I tink tht if I wan to be a shephard,I must be a good shephard and do the job of shephard well.And for the time being,I tink i nt ready for it and i shld make sure tht my walk with God is really right first and most importantly is that i tink tht i really dun have the strength and time for it now.
Lastly,Intern?I think it is totally imposible for now.
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